I am spiritual adequate. I realized during a meditation as I understand our exterior and outside environment is a reflexion of our interior aligned with the device that big people desires to be seen not unlike an expensive sport car owner. This is very much connected to me not having a need for material ownership as vast feels of adequacy exist within me. Hauntingly my relationship with my kids, my biological father, my dad, my x'wify's dad, my x's parents and me dreamscaping not wanting to wake up anywhere else if it isn’t beside Angie... paragon strangeness of my reality. I am confusing.